Archives for November 2017

Being Grateful

November 23, 2017

Happy Thanksgiving! We are getting ready to drive out to San Jose to spend the afternoon with our family there but before we do, I just wanted to hop on here and wish all of my two readers a very Happy Thanksgiving! haha. It has been a rough few months for me and I want to take a moment to share a few things that I am grateful today.

I am grateful for my family. The last few months have made me realize a lot of things. It has opened my eyes to what it means to be a family and what it takes to make our family grow (no, we’re not expanding) in a positive and loving environment. I am especially grateful for John and our two very beautiful children. I am so blessed and I thank God every day but more so today than ever for all my blessings.

I am also grateful for my health. I am not where I want to be but I continue this journey every day so that I can be a better version of myself than I was yesterday. I am not the healthiest at the moment but I am grateful to have the opportunity to wake up each morning and make better choices. I went for a 4 mile run this morning by myself and I’m writing my goal for next year now. I am going to run a 5k or 10K next year as part of the Run to Feed the Hungry here in Sacramento.

What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving? I hope you have a great day surrounded by loved ones…whether it’s friends or family! Enjoy all the yummy deliciousness that awaits you.

A New Tradition?

November 14, 2017

Happy Tuesday! I am going to be breaking one of my biggest rules that I have during the holidays! Deep breath…I’m going to decorate for Christmas before Thanksgiving (gasps)! I mean, the weekend before Thanksgiving is not too bad, right? I have seen people decorate right after Halloween! For years, I have refused to decorate until after Thanksgiving because let’s be honest it is becoming like the forgotten holiday that almost everyone rushes through so that we can get to Christmas. I mean I love Christmas just like everyone else but Thanksgiving has a special place in my heart.

There is no pressure to give the best presents but most importantly because it is a time of reflection for me. I get the opportunity to be thankful for all of life’s blessing with the people I love the most while stuffing my face! Haha. However, I think with us moving into the townhouse, having a fireplace (first time ever for the kids) and me just being overly excited for this new adventure that I’m willing to break my own rule. I feel horrible but I am just so excited! The kids are excited, well..mostly Dylan because Keira doesn’t even know what’s going on.

Here we are at Costco while searching for our tree. I made him take a picture because he’s getting too cool for pictures.

Trying on new things at Target!

We have searched far and wide and found our perfect tree which we plan on getting tonight! I can’t wait to share in future posts about how I am decorating our home for Christmas. Stay tuned!

A Little Update!

November 6, 2017

It’s November and yes, I’ve been failing on my goals for 2017. I have been struggling. I have written so many posts but have chosen to not publicly share because I was afraid. It’s very hard to put yourself out there on a daily basis in “real life” and yet to do it with blogging is even more terrifying. I get it, it’s not like I get thousands of hits on this little blog of mine but it’s hard to be vulnerable. Being judged is one of my greatest fear. However, I am learning to let go. Let go of the things that I can’t control. I can’t control what someone says or thinks about me. I can only control me and know that I have the best intentions with all that I do.

The last few months has consisted of me doing a lot of thinking. Which cannot be so great at times to be honest. I have been trying to look for answers and for meaning to things in my life that I would like to understand better. One of those searches led me to listening to podcasts on my morning walks with Keira. One of those podcasts was Oprah’s Super Soul Conversations with Brene Brown. Brene gives the reason for the title of her book and quotes Theodore Roosevelt. He said:

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause;who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.”

Hearing it and now having read the quote gave me a push to do something because I want to be in the arena! I don’t want to look back years from now and regret the things I wish I would’ve said or done. I want to be unafraid of failure. To know that it is ok to fail because that’s how we succeed…well, at least that’s what they say :). I don’t know because I have been to afraid to try anything because I have been afraid of failing.

To feel as though my opinions, whether you agree with them or not, matters! I haven’t figured everything out but I’m looking forward to moving on and learning to love myself along the way. I am ready for this journey!