It’s November and yes, I’ve been failing on my goals for 2017. I have been struggling. I have written so many posts but have chosen to not publicly share because I was afraid. It’s very hard to put yourself out there on a daily basis in “real life” and yet to do it with blogging is even more terrifying. I get it, it’s not like I get thousands of hits on this little blog of mine but it’s hard to be vulnerable. Being judged is one of my greatest fear. However, I am learning to let go. Let go of the things that I can’t control. I can’t control what someone says or thinks about me. I can only control me and know that I have the best intentions with all that I do.
The last few months has consisted of me doing a lot of thinking. Which cannot be so great at times to be honest. I have been trying to look for answers and for meaning to things in my life that I would like to understand better. One of those searches led me to listening to podcasts on my morning walks with Keira. One of those podcasts was Oprah’s Super Soul Conversations with Brene Brown. Brene gives the reason for the title of her book and quotes Theodore Roosevelt. He said:
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause;who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.”
Hearing it and now having read the quote gave me a push to do something because I want to be in the arena! I don’t want to look back years from now and regret the things I wish I would’ve said or done. I want to be unafraid of failure. To know that it is ok to fail because that’s how we succeed…well, at least that’s what they say :). I don’t know because I have been to afraid to try anything because I have been afraid of failing.
To feel as though my opinions, whether you agree with them or not, matters! I haven’t figured everything out but I’m looking forward to moving on and learning to love myself along the way. I am ready for this journey!
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